A plan to sanity

Being “isolated” for months just seems to make you paranoid.

Well, I am approximately 2 months away to my 1st year in Oz and it has been a struggle being the “social” that I was to just stay within the “limits” of my domain. I should say, I had a hard time coping with just talking to myself about what I’ve been through. Though I could talk to friends online, it’s very much different when you come to talk with someone, face to face and get reactions at an instant. And most of the time, they are not there too.

If Google is human or a thing that could answer almost everything, I should have done that in finding friends within a radius. Let’s say within 25 kms from where I live now.

Having those things, I am in a way trying to “adapt”. In meeting new people, I am actually treating them now as “acquaintances” as it’s really hard to find one here in Geelong. I don’t know, I just want someone whom I could talk to or just be there to become myself.

*sigh. It’s really hard to be back in my room to just stare at the monitor, thinking they could also talk back. With my usual “stare at my PC until I sleep”, I should say, I should do some variations. Perhaps, learn to sleep early or ignore to ignore what has to be ignored.